"On This Day"

05/25/2016
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We arrived to our Ultrasound appointment. It was the boys’ nap time but you wouldn’t know it – they were being so well behaved. I had been telling them for days that we were going to go to the Doctor’s and see the baby on the TV screen. Once settled in the ultrasound room, Leo excitedly hopped up into the chair like a big boy, sat up straight, and with a huge smile on his face, repeatedly said “Hi baby! Hi baby!” up to the TV monitor.
As the ultrasound tech moved her wand to the right I caught a glimpse of our nugget and looked for the flicker of its heartbeat. 
 I didn’t see it. 
 As she moved her wand to the left, I again briefly caught a glimpse of our nugget and searched for the flicker. 
I didn’t see it. 
The ultrasound tech settled her wand to capture our nugget and started taking measurements. I had so many, long, endless moments to search for the flicker. 
 I didn’t see it.
“Ok, so I know you have an appointment with your OB this Friday, but once we’re done here you’ll be meeting with Dr. So-And-So.”
….She didn’t see the flicker either….
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I had my first ultrasound 05.06.16 and saw a beautiful, STRONG, little heartbeat.
On 05.19.16, I again got to see our sweet angel’s strong, glorious, heart beating.
New life.
Hope.
Dreams.
And you all had come along on this journey with me. You all had witnessed the phenomenal, ‘bazaar’, spiritual, otherworldy happenings….the synchronistic coincidences….the angel messages… Holy Spirit speaking through friends and family…. everything that predicted Maggie’s arrival.
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At this point, the woman leading the Church Service shared that was in perfect alignment with the messages she had been receiving also – that the women, the feminine, will help restore faith. She quoted something from the Bible about the women leading the people into Zion and I made mental note that it was of great significance and I had to look more into it.
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The next day I went to my church. After service we were mingling about during Potluck, breaking bread, and building bridges. I was discussing my pregnancy with another member when an overhearing ear chimed in, “Oh, I love the name Margaret! That’s my daughter’s name. She lives over in Mt. Zion.” There are no such things as coincidences. 
 Margaret will lead the people to God.
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And only 10 days later she was gone. I could not see then exactly HOW Maggie was to lead the people to God. But now, a year later, I can see how He works in such brilliant, magnificent ways. He is a mighty weaver. Maggie led ME to Zion. The supernatural events… communication with angels…but most importantly, His Peace. His comfort. His Holy Spirit poured out upon ME. She led ME, and it is the desire in my heart to lead you - to Him. Hindsight is perfect vision. I can see with my history in competing and modeling….collecting ‘followers’ and a ‘fan base’…cultivating relationships within the Fitness Community….then within the Infertility Community…. That HE had given me the perfect platform to preach.
So here I am, preaching. By His stripes, I have been healed. I will not and cannot even claim Infertility anymore, because He has shown me with His love that I am healed and whole in His name. I know it is radical. I know it may even be offensive – there was certainly a point in my life where I would have been offended by someone preaching this very story to me, as if I didn’t have faith. But that is the lie of the enemy trying to steal your heart. God does not want to offend you, He wants to heal you. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.
It may be off the beaten path.
It may be a bit eccentric.
It may be hard to believe.
But it is My Story.
And I thank you, thank you, THANK YOU, for sharing it with me.
God Bless You.
p.s. I love you Maggie. Your life, and death, have been of the greatest events to ever happen to me. I look forward to meeting you in heaven, sweet angel.